Ever heard that old saying *Be carefull what you wish for, you might just get it*?
Well thats sorta the reason I've decided to go mini free for a while.
I got my little van on the road not long ago and its perfect!! *welp almost, I havent finished the interior* But I seem to have struck a real problem,
me
im an a$$ and I never realised it. I knew I wasnt safe on my motorbikes and blamed mobile phones and safer cars with dumber drivers. But since getting the van to its current state of tune I realise that I am the problem. The car pretty much drives like a motor bike. Hell its suppose to rev over 7k but I havent even taken it over 6k and yet I scare the crap outa myself with what I am doing.
Race spec engine... race suspension *dont need a new spleen since I got those comfy rover seats at least* this car just wants to go fast and ffs im just not up to the job anymore. If I overtake someone I find I jump from 60 to 85kms+ in a blink and the tiny gaps im taking, damn it I would shake my finger at myself and call myself a d1ckhead. Its not like im doing burn outs... I dont floor it at lights *except for that time that pesky P plater on a motor bike almost touched my wing mirror* and then i turned into a complete twit and stayed a meter off his butt as he sped away *thinking no one could keep up with him*
I simply can not tolerate such irresponible behaviour as its unsafe to everyone else and myself. Sure just use the car for track days you might say. Well I need to put some money into the business that pays the bills, and If I use my face as a crumple zone whilst acting an idiot.... then I fear I have learnt nothing over the last 42 years.
Im not sure if what I am feeling *and my reaction (the for sale add in the for sale forum) is just a process of growing up or maybe I have become some sort of neurotic. But the sooner I get myself an average car that just is... a car and not an awesome weapon of speed and thrills, the better.
One day when I am up for it, I will buy an original 850 with matching body/numbers/drum brakes... and keep it that way, but that day is not today.